I went to the symphony last night to hear Mendelssohn’s violin concerto in E minor. Stunning music. And the violin soloist’s (Augustin Hadelich) playing was flawless. As usual, beautiful music takes my mind in a million different places.
Apparently, Mendelssohn doubted his ability to pull this piece off. He wrote it for his friend Ferdinand David and at one point told him, “If I have a few propitious days, I’ll bring you something. But the task is not an easy one. You ask that it should be brilliant, but how can anyone like me do this?”
My mind wandered to a friend of mine who is struggling very much in her relationships. She was deeply wounded by her family, namely her mother and father, and her injuries are so severe that she doubts God is enough to heal her. She doesn’t say that she doubts God, but her beliefs and actions indicate that she does. She’s so wounded that she doesn’t even think she needs healing. Now she is latching on to something other than her faith in God to find life.
She’s exhilarated because for years she lived in a prison, she says. But now she feels “free” because she believes she’s found the answer to her problems. She believes she found the way out.
The only problem with her solution is that she’s trading one prison for another. What she’s going for contradicts something that God is clear about. God’s Word tells us one thing and she is doing the opposite.
How does a person who is so hurt and who believes that a new path will change everything for the better (a path that will lead to destruction), be convinced that she can do what God wants her to do? I’m sure that she must feel, deep in her soul, like Mendelssohn, “…how can anyone like me do this?”
Well, we can’t on our own. This is where the Holy Spirit comes in. He will show us the way; He carries us through the moments we feel like we can’t go one more step.
My heart aches for my friend because I understand the pain she has. No, I didn’t go through it personally, but I know what it feels like to think “The task is not an easy one. How can someone like me do this?”
So as her friend, what do I do?
I wait patiently. I love her. I pray for her. Encourage her. This path will end and she will need a friend at the end of it. I hope I can be that friend to her.
The moral of this story is: go to the symphony. The music will help you think about important things. Even brilliant musicians like Mendelssohn doubted his abilities.